Tuesday, March 10, 2009


Well I guess you could say that I have been a super bad blogger for the past well, month or so. I thought of all these witty things I could tell you about why I have been absent from the blog world, you know like cute top ten lists about why I have not been blogging or blaming it on my busy schedule. But I decided to just type from the heart for now...

So, basically I have been avoiding my blog. I checked out dictionary.com to see what avoidance really meant and I found that it is a noun meaning the act of avoiding or keeping away from. And this totally fits how I have been feeling for the past several weeks. I have always been afraid to really write from the heart on my blog. The normal insecurities certainly have set in, speaking from the heart just makes you vulnerable and I was not sure I was ready to do that. But over the past few weeks I have just been really falling for and listening to the lies that the enemy tries to sneak into our hearts and our minds. Silly things like, no one really cares about what you have to say on here. Haven't you seen those other blogs, yours does not even come close. Your words do not speak to the hearts of the people you know or might stumble upon this blog. I have tried to cling to the truth that I know, but I just have fallen prey to these feelings of unworthiness and self pity.

Even when I was at church last Sunday, I found myself listening to the voice that just kept telling me I was not good enough. I was frustrated...I know that I am so much more than the lies that I had been listening to. Tonight at small group, we were reading in Luke Chapter 1. In this particular part of scripture, we are introduced to two amazing women...Mary and Elizabeth. Both women were strong examples of faithful servants to the Lord. When Mary came to Elizabeth to tell her she was expecting, Elizabeth shared these words with Mary...

Blessed woman, who believed what God said, believed every word would come

true! Luke 1:45 (the message)

I think that my heart has been forgetting that God's word does not turn void and his promises endure. I have been letting the lies lead me to avoidance when I should be claiming and believing the promises that God has for me...I am a beloved and worthy child of God and should be living my life in that way. So friends, there will be no more hiding, no more avoiding...today is a new day!


  1. I am praying for ya Sweetie! Brand new day - and brand new mercies!!!!

    Becky Jo

    PS - did you ever get your package?

  2. I love hearing what you have to say! Blessings to you this day, friend.

  3. Brand new day!!!! I hate that I missed small group it sounds like great discussion!! Have a great week!

  4. Hi friend, I care about what you write on your blog and I care about YOU! Don't let the enemy feed you those lies anymore. You are an amazing child of God and you are loved very much by MANY! I hope you have a Great week.

  5. All I have to say about that is WOOHOO!!! Love you friend!

  6. I really love hearing from your heart just now. I think we can all fall prey to listening to the enemy's lies. I am glad you can discern the truth. May it richly take root in your heart and grow to a firmly planted tree...A planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor.


  7. I always read your blog... and by the way, your blog rocks. Mine however, I am just lucky to have one.... it is much to be desired in comparison. Keep your chin up! Spring is coming! (well, maybe if the weather can make up it's mind)

  8. oh, you stop that nonsense ;) i love your blog too...of course i would love to see more!!!

    you are so graceful in the way you write, and i find it very encouraging and interesting!

    you're in my prayers and i hope you have a blessed weekend!

    take care & God Bless!


    p.s. i appreciate your honesty and humility!

  9. Well, you can always be assured that whatever you say on your blog is definitely better than what I say on my blog... oh wait... weren't we at the small group??? :)

    Seriously though, I am glad you are back to blogging. I always look forward to what you have to share.

    PS -- I also think that the "words" you have to type down there for verification are funny. This one struck me as especially funny: ordbarki.


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